Since You Think My Ovaries Are Your Business...

People love to stick their nose in other people's lives.

It didn't take people long to start asking when the newlyweds would be getting busy in the bedroom and produce a spawn.

Ok ok, so they didn't ask us that specifically, but the gist was there. Haha

Our parents need grandchildren.

Don't we want kids?

Many of you don't know, because I don't feel that my life needs to be an open book for everyone about everything, but I do have a strong, terrible, awful desire to be a mom.

I have always loved kids.

Whenever I hold a new life in my arms my uterus aches (yes, that's a real thing, an aching uterus).

Whenever I see little kids in the grocery store laughing and talking I wish I had a giggling toddler in my cart, instead of just food.

When I photograph a happy, glowing expectant momma I wish that I was the one in front of the camera, sharing this moment with my hubby.

So since you think my ovaries are your business...

Yes, I want kids.

We want kids.

But we don't have kids.

Not yet.

Abba has a plan, I know He does.

He gave us this desire to have kids; to have a family.

But so far He has said, wait, My time isn't yet.

Can we have children?

We don't know.

Are we going to get tested?

No.

Because I don't think that I could handle the results.

If hubby or I had something physically wrong, there's a chance there's nothing we could do about it.

If there's nothing wrong with either of us, then there would be all the questions...What are we doing wrong? and then the blaming game...

There's no reason to put ourselves through that, mentally or emotionally.

So we're just going to keep practicing 😉

keep our eyes on Jesus

keep trusting the process

keep growing closer together

and enjoy the journey 💗

And who knows...

Our journey might look totally different than even I imagined...

But that's a different story for another day.